i believe this is my second post, but i have to get this off of my chest... hopefully i don't bore you all too much with the details
i remember around the age of 3 or 4 i used to sit on top of my mother's or other women's feet, hugging their calves, as they sat on a chair or on the couch. then they would raise their legs - same form as a leg extension. i used to get erections and loved the feeling. i know that might sound gross, but remember i was only 3 or 4.
then around kindergarten, i had my first girl crush and for whatever reason, i would go to sleep imagining her as a giantess - a huge giantess - to the point where i would fit in the palm or her hand and the fantasy would be of her blowing kisses at me and smiling. i'd fall asleep with erections and sometimes grinding the bed. lol...
around 2nd or 3rd grade, i found my dad's bodybuilding book. it was a black and white, illustrated book showing the exercise forms and the men in there were slightly bigger than average, not like an arnold or anything. i didn't find myself sexually attracted or felt any stirring in the loins, but was amazed at the size of their muscles. i envied them and wanted to grow large muscles.
then throughout elementary school i found myself being sexually attracted to women with big breasts, especially around the 5th grade. by the 6th grade i found my dad's porn collection. video tape after video tape, wack-off session after another, i favored the thicker women with large breasts. they weren't fat, just thick, if you know what i mean.
so then one day, i went through the porn magazines and in the stack was a muscle and fitness issue. there was a special swimsuit section and i wacked-off many times to those girls. they were your stereotypical sexy, bikini-wearing, medium to medium-large, breasted women - beautiful skin tone, not ripped or muscular at all, not even fitness level. then one day, i went past the swim suit section and out came the first female bodybuilder i've ever seen, sandy riddell. it was a combination of feeling shocked, grossed-out, intrigued, awe, and fascinated. i decided to masturbate to her picture. i imagined myself being sexually attracted to her and imagining the kind of things she was able to do with her muscles and strength that no other woman without her size was capable of. it felt naughty and dirty and i was totally hooked to the feeling ever since.
there was only one muscle-girl i ever touched and that was around middle school. she was a couple years younger than me at the time. she was a gymnast and her thighs were thick. every time she took a step or did anything with her legs, her quads and calves would bunch up and get hard. one day we were alone and i asked her to stretch out her leg and i felt her quad, squeezing them and feeling the ridges and bumps. instant boner. that was my first experience of muscle lust. i couldn't hold back and kept feeling her legs and asking her to continuously flex and unflex them. then i asked to massage them with some lotion. ahhh.. memories. the one and only time i ever worshipped female muscles.
so anyhow, i was always a muscular legs fan since then til around high school and didn't care much for thick upper bodies. through high school, the hormones were kicking in overtime and i needed to satisfy the muscle hunger. i decided to start buying magazines.. (no internet at the time
) i would walk home from school, stop at the local convenient store and pick up a flex magazine every month, occasionally a muscle and fitness mag, too. (they never had women physique world! it was so hard to find on the magazine rack..) during those times, the female bodybuilders were getting larger, more ripped and vascular. the magazine was awesome back then. it also covered the women just about the same amount as it did for the men. the fold-out center pic was also great.
nowadays, i noticed that the magazine has scaled back the attention to larger women.. bummer.
well now there's the internet.. haha..
so seeing the women in flex magazine really got me into the overall muscular body of the women. from then on, it's always been "bigger the better" for me. the fetish of large breasts has been replaced by humongous muscles. i would take muscles over boobs any day. of course, implants like nikki fuller are an absolute bonus.
my fav from back then (and still is at her peak) is tina lockwood. her size, looks, legs, smile, personality, and voice were perfect. don't get me wrong i love a lot of the women out there today, but there will always be a special place for tina. she was just so awesome and on top of that, at such a young age.
thanks for listening to my rant