Why am I submissive?
My desire to submit to a dominant woman is rooted in my body image (and body reality!) growing up. As I got to middle school and onwards, I always felt that I was thin and weak for a boy… and I always admired girls who were athletic and strong. My reaction to feeling weak, less than them, could have been to resent stronger girls or be intimidated by them, but instead I felt deeply aroused by them. Even other more subtle things I felt lacking, like not having much body hair and seeing some girls with more, were things I eroticized. Note that I was not generally shy or meek. I was usually the smartest kid in my classes, and I was not afraid of asking questions, answering questions from teachers, and generally have always been very confident in the intellectual “sphere.” But I was always a bit shy around girls due to my feelings of physical inadequacy.
As I reached adulthood, I continued to be skinny: I am 5’10 and my weight fluctuated between 130 and 135lbs when I was 18 to 25, and my only physical activity was occasionally playing soccer or basketball – no gym or lifting weights. So, I realistically thought that some young women could physically dominate me (I lived in a Southern European country during that period, so likely not that many girls were stronger than me as if I had lived in the US at the time, but still some)… I did have that experience with my first girlfriend (a story I may tell another day).
I always try to be nice to women, particularly when I find them attractive, although without crossing any boundaries. I find a woman dominating me with their beauty and sex appeal sexy… I find a woman physically overpowering me and forcing me to do her bidding amazingly hot on another level!!
