It's definitely the perception and the isolation that keeps me from being honest with anyone in my life. I mean, for one thing, what I masturbate to is my business alone. I honestly don't care what my friends masturbate to, and I really don't need or even want them to tell me about it. As far as my girlfriend is concerned, she knows that I like athletic/fit women, but she doesn't know the full extent of it (and how deep it goes into bodybuilding). But after being together for 10 years, we've sorted out a system and our porn lives are private from one another. It's not perfect, but we live a happy life, so why mess with a good thing?