I've been turned on by muscular women since I was a teenager, which is obviously quite far from the teenage ideal of a beautiful woman (I have always been into big breasts also; I think the attractions are related). Of course, now those women that first turned me on would be less muscular than a lot of the crossfit women. It is not something that I share with people. I would admit being into fit, naturally muscular women if it ever came up, but never the huge muscular women that turn me on the most; not sure if the reason is all shame, part shame, or a mixture of shame and disgust. The fact is that for me the fantasy of huge muscular women is far sexier than the reality- drugs, facial hair, fake breasts, etc. I always thought that Betty Pariso was hot until I saw her speak on some HBO doc (I think?) and thought she sounded like a dude; that kind of destroyed my crush on her. I don't think I would be too motivated to come on to a massive muscle woman in person, although I will admit that seeing them lift is pretty hot. As you can see, I am a bit conflicted about my attraction. A long winded answer to explain that yes, I feel some shame. I think.